The past few weeks have been exhausting. Being a mom without sleep just doesn’t work. You don’t just get to rest because you need it. You have to take advantage of those night time hours for sleep or do with out. Caffeine will only provide so much. Once your energy is depleted it’s gone, but all the demands of motherhood are still there.
This brought me to my desperate state I was in last night. In my house we don’t have a medicine cabinet, we have a supplement cabinet. I had two options melatonin or valerian root.
I’m not a fan of melatonin. It makes me feel a lot like medicine makes me feel. I get that cloudy, dopey feeling, and in the morning I’m groggy and feel hungover. I had to take my husband to the airport in the morning, so that wasn’t really even an option. I have always heard such great things from the “natural living” community about melatonin. I was so disappointed when I tried it for the first time. I had it a full week to let it get in my system and hopefully regulate, but I was miserable.
This is a huge reason I started this blog. I hear and see a lot of hype around natural products and remedies. I’m not coming to you to sell anything or pushing any agenda. I hope that through sharing my experiences I can shed more light on some of these things.
Ok let’s get back on topic here and talk about my second option which I went with, valerian root. I’ve had valerian root in the past and I’ve loved it. First off I noticed it helped combat my anxiety. I later found that this is a common effect of valerian root. Now the second thing I’ve come to realize about it, is it doesn’t guarantee my sleep. This can be frustrating, but probably the reason I don’t feel dopey after taking it.
So last night I decided to take valerian root, and I put a few drops of lavender on my wrists and neck. I put on my eye mask and laid down in bed. I was ready to fall asleep after a few minutes, but I couldn’t stop wondering if you could pickle sugar snap peas. Don’t you hate it when your brain bombards you with ridiculous thoughts as you’re laying in bed? I knew it would bug me until I knew. I took off my eye mask and grabbed my phone to google, “Can you pickle sugar snap peas”
When I did, I couldn’t see what I was typing. Now I have terrible eyesight so this wasn’t too shocking. I’m nearsighted so my solution was to bring my phone closer to my face. But this didn’t help. I pulled it away from my face and still nothing. At this point I was starting to panic. I couldn’t see. My eyesight is bad, but not that bad! I covered my left eye and I could see a little better, but still not well by any means. Then I covered my right eye and this real made me panic. Not only was my phone blurry, but my depth perception was off. It was almost like looking though a magnifying glass, when the center looks closer than the edges.
I started worrying that something was wrong with me. Maybe I had glaucoma or diabetes and this was the first sign. So much for anxiety relief…
My husband started googling valerian root side effects and blurry vision wasn’t listed. As time passed I noticed my vision slowly getting better, not normal but better. I started googling valerian root myself, and eventually found a website that confirmed that blurred vision was a side effect of valerian root in some people. Apparently I’m one of those people.
This is why you always want to do extensive research on these natural remedies, and not just take someones word for it. Everyone reacts to things differently. What works for you might effect me totally differently.
Despite all the chaos of blurred vision, I have to confess that I had the best sleep I’ve since becoming a mother! I’m not sure that it was worth it, but I’m going to enjoy this refreshed feeling while it lasts. Hopefully lavender and a eye mask gets me through tonight.